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dominioned) wrote2019-12-03 07:17 pm
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A smooth voice calls out to you once you've sat down, familiar enough to identify the speaker despite the partition between you.
"Welcome welcome. I take it something is on your mind?"
We're in a museum now, Harry.
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He can move past it. ]
That does make things tricky. As much as I want to help you out, the best I can do is listen. [ And Rembrandt doesn't want to explain too much, making listening hard. Maybe they can try something else? He gazes at the sculpture and brushes his fingers above the dent.
Hmm... ] Which way are your tastes leaning?
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In the direction they used to, despite the...disappointment that was last time. [ It's vague af, but it seems at least here, he's pretty serious. ]
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What to say here? Mostly, it sounds like Rembrandt's trying to avoid regretting something and spare himself some hurt. Erik gives the metal a firm press before pulling his hand back. ] That's a start.
If it were me and I was that torn up about it, I think I'd start by asking myself if the last time was worth it. And then, I'd try to figure out why things might be different this timeβor how I could make it turn out differently.
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Ah, you forgot an option. I could just make to cut my losses.
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But that answer surprises him. Awkwardly, he rubs his neck. ]
Scampering off instead of making a decision, huh? I won't say I've never done it, so maybe I'm not the right guy to talk you out of it. [ As light-hearted as he's trying to seem, there's a hint of sadness to his tone. ]
All I can say is... once you decide what you want, don't look back.
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Dear me, no that's not what I meant at all. I have always taken what is owed to me, always. No, what I was wondering was simply this: it is one thing to fulfill a duty, and another to succeed at it.
[ And he might have been done speaking in any other circumstance, but he quiets a bit and adds. ]
Oh, I know.
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His smile fades and thinks for a few minutes. Eventually, he nods at that quiet "I know" and takes a few steps away from Rembrandt, crosses his arms, and looks around the room. ]
In other words, what matters here isn't the ending. It's what you do along the way.
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I guess whether it is or isn't doesn't matter too much for you. The bottom line is, you get the same thing either way. [ That might be why he's having a hard time. ]
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But this is a matter of my aesthetic and principles. And how much I feel like getting my hands dirty.
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I'm half-tempted to ask if you want me to decide for you. Only... if it's like that, it might not be my place. [ If Rembrandt ends up unhappy with his pick, it isn't worth it. ]
How about this? You're not the only one involved in whatever this duty of yours is, right? Someone else is, too. So, what about them? How much do they deserve from you?
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The terms of our contract are very clear. There is no "deserving" or "undeserving" and putting emotion into such things is such a foolishly human problem. But— [ He flexes his left hand, holding it up to the light for what little it does while being gloved as always. ]
I could decide to really play, if I wanted.
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But something about what Rembrandt just saidβit stings. He never expected a fair shake from the start, not here or anywhere else. So why is he being told how emotional or "foolishly human" the concept of "getting what you deserve" is? Frustrated, he stalks up to Rembrandt and tries to reach his hand up to cover his. And... fails.
Tall bastard. With a frown, he pulls his hand back and crosses his arms. ] Did you ever think that might be your problem? All this back and forth is you sitting on the fence, trying to convince yourself what you should or shouldn't do. When that doesn't work, you try to tell yourself there's a loophole to exploit! If you do as little as possible, then you're still fulfilling your duty. Except you can't accept that either!
The truth is, you don't want to playβand you stubbornly think not "wanting" to isn't a good enough reason!
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Then it gets dark, the candles he had placed nearby (decidedly not for ambiance) flickering wildly. In the not quite darkness, his eyes are bright red. ]
There's always a loophole, I don't make my contracts without them. [ He lets his hand fall then, finally. ]
I told you I was greedy. [ It's likely not the acknowledgement Erik is searching for, but it's not a rebuke either. ]
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That's even worse, Rembrandt.
[ And greedy doesn't begin to cover it. ]
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A thief will steal and a devil will devour. But that's never been enough to satisfy me. [ If Erik is standing his ground than Rembrandt is doing just the opposite, maneuvering around easily in the dim light to stand in front of the sculpture from before. He takes it in one hand, folding it easily until its shape is perfectly uniform. ]
Very well then, I shall play~.
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[ He sighs. ] I never expected you to do anything else, but this still feels lousy. Are we done here?
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If I hated it, I would have stayed the course I was on for hundreds of years. But tell me, what do you expect me to do? Or is it that you've not yet realized what exactly you've done?
[ Because he certainly isn't feeling conflicted anymore. ]
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From here? Honestly, I've got no clue where you're planning to take this. The only thing I know now is whatever it is, it's bad for me and everybody else here. [ Hence, feeling lousy. He turned his one friend here into an enemy. Feels bad, bro. ]
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Or would you rather just assume after coming all this way?
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Isn't it? [ Despite knowing he shouldn't be, he is a little hopeful. When he speaks up again, his voice quieter. ] If I ask, are you really going to tell me?
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There are many lies she's fond of telling, but that is the truth. Your stay here will be over shortly.
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After his breather, he's more or less recovered from his shock and takes a step toward Rembrandt. ] Okay, Rembrandt. I don't know if it's trust, or hope, or even naivety, but I want to believe in you.
I won't press any more right now, just... when you can tell me, I want to know what all this was about.
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But very well, you have my word. [ For everything he's being, he presses his hand against his chest too. ]
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I'll hold you to it! [ A smile! ] I'd stay and chat some more, but since you've sorted things out I might leave you to your thoughts. When you feel like talking more, you know how to find me.
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